remember to feel real

Friday, May 30, 2008

dying...

shits, something's wrong with my body.
like lau sai-ed 3 times today!
and dunno how many times this week!!!
and the pain comes back after a few hours,
but only last for like a few seconds la.
it has been going on this whole week. Zzz!
well, maybe its just normal-ish.. lolx.
but i keep wanting to shit.. roar! -.-!
damn it la.. sianz! holidays are boring!!

everybody's out for the bbq or whatever it is.
and omg, it was the same spot/pit,
as the 1st feburary 2008 that one.. Hahas!
and im bored... sian-ness can.. haiz!
at least mui didnt go... lol. crap!
the chn8, 9pm show ended le...
i hate those endings.. seriously.
but normally most endings i dont like. heh.
and where got in life can go back in time de?!
like 2 times somemore.. siao arh?!!

btw, my sis friend says that,
a scoop of ice-cream = a steak... -.-!
you know like sirloin/beef steak. woah!!
i dont know where they get that info from.
like wth man.. can die la..
have been eating ice-cream this few days,
and macdonalds the greentea one rocks!
have been addicted to cookies&cream la.
like so fattening la. prefer peppermint one!

and my dear nicole mui...
you better take care!!! heh.

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

just this very dream.

woah, i just realised that its like my 502 posts la.
its like only 2-3 years sia.. cool.
i know, you'll say i blog so much.. heh.

anyways! today is my daddy's birthday!
happy bday... lol.
and i wont let others affect my mood,
from today onwards.. haiz!
why i always cannot promise myself about my commitments. i always say i will let ppl see the happy side of me, no matter what. but i cant do it. i really cant! stupid!
and yes i know im dumb la. i just wished everything was just a dream. and i could restart life, and make the better of it. but i dont think can help la. think it'll become worse. its the words that were never meant to be. i dont want ppl to hate me, bcos i dont hate people. its just the words that come out from my mouth, and i dont mean it at all. im so sorry to all. really very sorry!

its you that matters to me.
its me that i only love...
its the books that i'll commit to..

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

thesefundaysareover!!

this is one last thing i'll say, im getting really bored!! too bad, you are a coward so then dont cause this stupid trouble la.. its annoying can. im not being defensive la, i just hate it when ppl say stupid lame rumours about me... you know that verbal is better than saying in blogs, its crap!! and what shit man, you dont even know 'audrey' is a girl's name!! oh gosh! still say is audrey's name a girl,guy or phedophile?! what shit you want la..!! still put a big HAHA behind. lame la you. just shut up la... want audrey to keep her comments, why not you keep urs too.. and i shall keep mine too. i cant be bothered with you le la!!! just F off... its super crappy!! ur straightfoward-ness is too much!

EH, tracy... i already said that you are getting like untrue facts about me. so why cant i say that you like paul. its like some rumour what. so like its so untrue. unless you dunno whats the meaning of un-true, which sort of means Not True!!! now, you're like a dumbdumb!! im not a dummy for goodness sake. i hate ppl who calls me a dummy. in fact if you call me a dummy, you are one too!! =D and i dont care if you like/dont like paul khoo bcos i dont like that guy. and here you are saying that i like him. so whats wrong with saying that you like paul khoo, want me spread somemore rumours i can you know. but i dont think i will, cos im not as evil as you. so wanna have more fun?? i dont mind. but writing in blogs are of no use. wanna have a talk once sch re-opens? i dont mind leh.. its like hmmmm, so damn fun la.

you wanna have fun eh??
you said you are a bitch what.
then why get so offended la? Zzz!
you say im obssessed over that guy.
hmmm, you are like way NOT IN la.
you are like super lagger can.
i already said how many times that i dont like him, for goodness sake la. you really want to have fun?? why not i say, that tracy likes paul khoo. the guy in 3D also in soccer... this is fun right?!! wanna have more fun? i'll get more untrue facts and say about you here la... you wanna say more about me, go ahead la. bcos you can never know how angry i will get... =D you have not known my true colours yet. and i can be nice and yet be super fierce like a piece of shit.
ok enough about this shit.. no point anyways, so useless! and talking about this makes me feel so bitchy. i then dont want become as bitchy as you la.. im suppossed to be good girl one la, until i came to 3D i became like one shitty person. think i better quickly change my attitude sia... haiz!

today i went to cut my hair. yay!
its like thin now. nicenice! love it!
went all the way to boon lay to cut. haha!
and then i showed my parents my report book. my father is so angry. Zzz! at most i study from june holidays onwards lor... so what if my uncles and aunts are teachers at schools. wth la. so what if one of my uncle teaches in Vjc... irritating la... the june holidays are boring... like really super boring... and im really getting tired of living... sianz. maybe, i'll do holiday assignments and homeworks or watch tv or sleep or do my church camp book which is like so freaking thick. Hahaha! but nvm, i'll just study this month.. heh. i must work hard to get number 1,2 or 3 on my report book. cos i really hate the number 5 and U.. LOL!

and i like it when my handphone is quiet, it has been quiet these few days. and i like it. means that i can have a peaceful time. i can talk less than 100-500 words a day la. but normally they say women talk like more words than men. like 5000 words a day i think. like wow! am i abnormal or what? maybe im supposed to be a guy, my family always say i act like one. well, im like that, cant change... and i've never liked talking. so dont insult me by saying that im a mute la.. lolx. and i think i'll try to shut off my phone for the whole month. its of no use. other than making calls to ppl. heh. and HPs are like not a need to humans lor... so are tvs and computers, all these are just wants and not needs.

so why am i even using the com now, i think im intending to not touch the com this whole month. i hope i can accomplish that.. haha. think i've gone out of my mind. but whatever!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Friday, May 23, 2008

everyday is just so bad!!

today is the last day of school.
wheee, im like happy and sad leh.
i'll miss many friends... lol.
if im not wrong, today should be,
erm, isit weichong's birthday??!
i think so la, anyways, happy bday!

thursday.
had our EM again...
we did sewing damn fun la.
i didnt do sewing,
but watching them do is cool.
and fixing the machine was also fun.
and i couldnt part with the measuring tape.
lolx, look at mui and nats sew,
made me like so pek chek la. hahas!!
then i accidentally whacked adrian,
with the measuring tape. oops.
he thought i purposely de lor.. Zzz!
then he suddenly call me Ms. chow.. lol.
say what my surname nice. -.-!
and asked if i am related to chow yun fat.
like what shit la he.. lame lor!!
then went for CC, boring!! heh.
and mira was annoying again lor. haiz.
suddenly asked if i wanted that guy's number.
wa lao aye, just stop with this stupid acts la.

today - friday.
we had our EM again. fun-ness!!
did our finishing touches,
on our skirt cum tube thingy. lol.
that adrian keep asking us to pin up the drawings.
then ask us to take it down too. wth la.
actually i think FD is the best module,
esp, adrian, our teacher is great. LoL!
then went back class,
took our report book...
i really starting to hate the number 5 lor!
ok then blahs, and went home. BYE!

everytime i look at you,
i feel like i've not given up yet.
i really dont know, have been really confused.
can you just tell me if i should really give up.
its just too difficult to forget you...
i think i'll try to give up bah,
but its like months already, annoying leh.
but i know that you really dont like me le,
and you like her a lot too, so no hope!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

depressing world of stupid friends.

that chn8,9pm show's tragedy happened le.
after so many of their crying episodes,
like hmmm, almost every episode got ppl cry. Zzz!
and this 13th episode is the only one,
that i was crying when they were crying.
zhiling died bcos of zhang nan... haiz!!! -.-!
its just so depressing man.. lol.

this year i guess its really the worse year.
every year also got ppl spoil my year.. wth?!
this is just so crappy la... stupidity rocks! =)
and all thanks to those BIGbigmouth ppl,
dunno how many hundreds of ppl know le...
ok, i know im exxagerating but who cares,
its freaking-ly all ur stupid faults la.. Roar!
and mira like said 'hi' to me twice, like wth?
she is like so purposely can.
she doesnt even say hi to me on normal days.
and then tracy also ask me to look,
at where the guy was at, wat the heck?!
eh, please la, dont be retarded can.
you want spread so much, isit bcos you like him.
why not i suggest you go jio him la,
stop being such buggers la. its annoying!
you ppl maybe got read my blog,
dont blame me bcos i mentioned ur names,
but i wrote here to not go overboard,
if you say somemore hor,
wait till i really go scold you ppl, you'll die happily!
when im angry, i can be like a crazy woman! =P
and its not a funny thing ok!!
sometimes i really do take things seriously.
please stop being such BITCHES!
finally i got the courage to say this 'B' word. =X

okok, today was SPORTS day!!!! wheeeee!
one thing super bad about it was that,
the dumbdumb sun was sooooo HOT!
i was really chao da-ed la.. haiyo.
my cheeks are rather red, and im darker!
i can never get back to my original colour la!
and then, 3D won cheer competition!!
and we won overall sec3 champion for today...
very happy, screamed like siao la.. heh!
and like almost all the 6 classes used 'low'.
like so funny can, but we used the whole song.
the rest is played a bit of it,
and it was like a faster version.. lolx.
oh and 3D the guys run super damn fast can. lolx.
the girls were also fine.... heh.
then after sports day had CC,
at least got air-con sia.. so shuang!!
then go home le, yup Bye!
and sometimes i like 3D,
but sometimes hate 3D, bcos of some idiotic ppl.

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

stupiddumbuntrustedppl.

sometimes i really feel like why do i exist?!!
so many people are out to backstab me...
and EVERYONE really cant be trusted.
or maybe i just keep trusting the wrong ppl.
i feel so freaking pissed!!!!!
actually wanted to write vulgarities,
but NoNO, must learn from shihui. Haha!
tmr's sports day. i feel bad about it.
but also looking forward to it. whateveR!

monday - vesak day.
went out with my family to ecp,
went to mac to eat...
after eating saw nat there... lol.
i said hi to him and he like blur sia. heh!
then we went to cycle... wth!
so tiring like 2hrs can.. omg la.
sit until my butt was damn pain!
and like chao da-ing my skin. haha!
then went to PP, ate lunch at sakae.
ooohhhh nice nice. then ate ice-cream.
gosh, our money like so wasted.
but i love food. cannot help it.. lolx.
then at night still go tm & cs,
buy shoes for CC... roar!! ok done.

tuesday - today.
i hate today. worse day ever.
mui suddenly was pissed off with us,
for like idontknow what freaking reason.
made me so angry too...
wanted to kill myself with the scissors la!
ok no la, i was playing with it. lol.
then today we did tie-dyeing... so fun!
then went for AS, handbell was not good.
we played rather horribly again,
for the same song, 'ride the chariot'
hope we dont play badly again for CC.
then waited for the excursion bus...

from this moment onward i was like,
unexplainably angry like super pissed.
found out from shihui that a lot of ppl know,
about my secret. hello, mind you its a secret!
not for you ppl to spread rumors la...
in the first place, i never tell you ppl this secret la.
confirm got somebody go sabo me.. F you!
i freaking hell dont like that guy le la.
why would i like a guy whom i dunno.
i wished i took up boxing...
can box those who spread this rumor.
its not funny ok to spread a secret.
what if i knew who you like/love,
then go spread to the school.
would you be happy, of course no right?!
unless you really desperate for the guy la.
you all can go die la... $^%&$-)&*#!(%!!
i really HATE these kind of ppl,
whom really CANNOT be trusted la.
ok forget about it, i cant do anything.
venting my anger here isnt of any help either.
one fine day, wait and see,
if you ppl have gone overboard...
i confirm you will die like shit... =D
i really totally mean it this time!!
and its like not for you ppl to know,
why be so BUSYBODY la?!!!! -.-!

anyways, excursion went to chinatown.
looked at some fabrics and stuff.
i did not have the mood, was soooo Angry!
then came back sch like 3.45pm.
went back classroom helped the adrian.
after helping we all sat down,
and talked with him... hahas!!
he asked us what we want to do next time.
Haha, then say that most of the time,
guys who join fashion design hor,
only want to see chio-bu.. LOL?!!
okok, byebyebye....

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

imboredliketotally...

its like all this had never happened.
so fast, 5months+ gone le... haiz.
wished time went slower... Zzz!
and, jaeken is really cute!! =)
gosh, he is like 1 month old only,
then got lots of hair alr.. hahas! cute!

i wanna buy new specs.
its like breaking off soon, i think. haha!!
i'll never wear contacts... heh. =D
i wanna go shopping... lol.
want to buy lots of things,
very long never shop lor...
i want so many things.
but i know i cant get many...
im not rich... -.-! and being rich isnt good either.

if only i could tell you that iloveyou.
but i know you love her. okwhatever. shutup!
i regretted waiting for you. crappy...
cos we dont even talk already... haiz!!
anyways must concentrate on my studies,
from term3 onwards. no more playing!!
and must work hard for cheer,
i dont wanna be on top, i got this bad feeling,
that i will fall down flat on my face la.. roar!
i wish this whole week would pass fast,
but yet pass slowly too...
fast bcos i hate all those clashes of AS & FD!
oh and CC too. hate it la...
i want my elective module to go properly lor.
why must handbell like that de... annoying!
why go take part in so many things!!!
go die la... ROARRRRRR! pissed off like shit!
and wants it slow bcos i hate the holidays.
cant get to see my friends la.. sian!
to be honest, i think i LOVE school. like seriously!
okokok, ciaos!!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Friday, May 16, 2008

boobooinurpants. haha.

yay!! we got into cheer finals...
wahahahas, must win!!
or else we will lose to 3J, i think.
haiz!! 3D, we must work hard!!
its like rather surprising that we won.
and like only 6 classes got in...
6 only leh.. crazy man! Zzz!

anyways, today was an ok day.
verification of our marks...
woah, my A-maths overall, 5%!
i think im the worst student la..
then was our elective module.
it was on fashion design. wheeeee!
the teacher was mr adrian... lol.
he is some fashion designer...
then blahblahs, we went to 3A...
when he talk is like very boring..
he sounds gay.. oopsss!!
but oh gosh, he's from Lasalle la. i think.
like how cool is that eh??!
and 10yrs in fashion industry! woah!
too bad, im not interested in fashion designing...
somemore he say its a very competitive thingy.

oh ya, and we formed a grp of 5.
me,shihui,nic,nic aw,natalie...!! =D
and our theme was like, 'bridal gowns'...
then then, he let us draw...
and im like what the!! how draw sia,
i took a long time to start drawing.
just didnt have the mood to draw la.
then finally i drew the body shape.
i find that its quite alright actually.
then the adrian came to our table,
and he saw my drawing, with no dress on yet.
then he helped me to draw la. cool can.
he took less than 1-2 mins to draw an evening gown.
and in my mind was like oh gosh!! so good!
and his evening gown was damn cool.
i didnt dare to draw on that paper anymore.
so took another piece and did something like his.. heh.
then 12.45pm sch ended....
had the council commendation rehearsal. sian!
i really hate hate hate handbell la. stupid Cca!

somemore hor, tuesday suppose to go excursion.
but all bcos of that stupid 'Arts Streats'...
me and shihui cant go.. wth??! asshole!
its like going to some fashion industry place i think.
like how nice is that la... roar!!
its like a once in a lifetime thingy lor.
i dont think i'll ever be a fashion deisgner either.
so just let me go la.. crappy handbell!!
then after handbell,
me and yonglin helped alison with her stuff,
we went to canteen to count tables&benches.
lolx. like so lame... Hahaha! but fun.
we did the arrangement until we gave up.
we even moved some benches.. hahas!
after that, went with yonglin & geraldine to Tm.
miss going out with them, like so long le. haiz.
they were like so LoL la...
yonglin was putting all the fault on geraldine.
bcos of the stands thingy.. Hahaha!
funny sia... then took bus home with yonglin.
saw kj and jaslynn....... lolx. byebye!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

such kind of trust. wth??!!

i finally know that trust is so darn important.
so please, dont spread my secret can... please?!
or else i can really go bang wall sia. Ahhhhh!
oh and happy birthday to erm,
ummairah and clarissa!! heh. =D

somehow i think my new fridge will die soon.
ahhhh, confirm less than 10years.. Haha!

and to start, i wanna say,
a thousand apologies to ernest & amanda...
bcos while doing the cheer stunts thingy,
i had to go up mah, then come down that time,
i accidentally hit amanda's head. omg, so sorry!
and then while we doing cheer comp. audition,
when it was not yet the slapping part,
i go slap ernest, when his hand not there,
omg, i am so very very sorry!!! haiz!
i was so embarrassed la,
everybody not yet slap then i slap,
only after awhile then they slap. oh wth?!!
i was like oh shit, omg, wat the heck??!!!!
i feel so damn guilty to both of them sia.

anyways, today was still papers collecting day.
i am the worse in A-maths la,
guess how much i got??!!! haha.
3/60!!!! cool right... ur eyes are not tricking you.
i really got 3/60... heh. i feel so damn dumb.
nvm, next term must work hard like shit!
then my lit got like 37/50 la. yay!! =)
the rest is borderline pass or fail. hehe.
ok then ya, nothing le.. bye!!
i really hope can pass through the auditions!
3D good job!! lolx. i must pray hard.
so that we can get in!!! ahhhh!! lol.
ok, byebye my friends... hahas.

and im kinda wanting to hate handbell...
its like just after exams then,
start have so many handbell sessions alr.
i feel so stressed. very angry!!!
i dont know why, just feel like handbell is also adding on to this stress of mine, i really wish there's no Cca(s) in sch la, wish that not joining cca will not affect our marks for anything... everytime go handbell always got fear, scared mrs aw scold me. im just so cham at reading scores can, why did i even want to join a musical kind of Cca la. wth. was it a wrong choice? but i think its too late anyways.. haiz. i didnt want to join (Gb/volleyball) all those sports stuff, is bcos i know my skin colour will become darker, and then ppl will start insulting and making fun of me, i've had enough, like seriously, some nicknames i can take it la, but just never call me black, cos i really am Not black. im so sorry, not being racist here or anything. just dont like ppl to make fun of me... sometimes also wish like not going to handbell, but i'll feel really bad, cos i have never liked to skip things without any reasons. even the other time i got a high fever i still went for handbell la. heh. i want to die, like seriously. sometimes i wonder, what if i was an ant? then dont need to study, isnt that better? but everyday living in fear, cos ppl may step on you. sometimes i wonder, what if i was not a human? would i even know that the Earth exists?? omg, my head is giving me questions like non-stop la. its so freaking irritating. i wished i was a smart girl, and good in everything. but sadly, i am Not. i turned out to be a girl who is rather stupid and dumb at like everything!! ahhhhh, i really feel like handbell is also making me go really frustrated. but who is to blame? me, myself and I... why am i talking things with no link at all sia. wth?!!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

its the end of everything, i guess...
im not waiting anymore... =)

the worse thing of cheer is that,
im pairing up with Lionel Phia! EEe!!
still have to hold his hand. omg, yucks!
nvm, i'll do it for the class. Hahas.

please pass down this msg,
"mui almost kena molested by that sicko guy"
bcos the person like want touch her butt,
and she still want ppl know, so pls pass down! =)
if you have a blog and if you know her. Haha!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Monday, May 12, 2008

sucha dead fun day...

sometimes i feel like just being the grass...
i shall think positively from today onwards.
i will treat EVERYONE nicer...
so dont feel weird if i do hor. hehe.
i'll not give you guys blackface,
and not moodswings too..
even if im sad, i'll just give a smile. LoL!

today was sucha nice day-out.
with nicole mui and natalie... =D
we watched 'SpeedRacer' Ohyeah!!
go speedracer, go speedracer!
go speedracer GOOooooooo!!
but the not so nice thing was...
i sat beside a guy who looked like,
that handsome guy from side view la.
but actual fact is, he's weird??!
but i think me and nats were weirder.
like we laughed at the lamest things.
and i also laughed for no reasons la!
we were laughing away like siao!!!
but when it comes to the race part,
i was so totally serious man. Hahas.

and another not so nice thing was,
that while nats was listening to me,
cos i was talking about my stupid dream.
she suddenly puked green tea on my hand.
like errrr. wth??!! eeewww!!
guess it was really funny bah. Haha.
but i cant say it here...
its a little too private-ish la.. heh.
can only say that..........
its about me, her and her cube. lolx.
then went mos burger to eat,
then homesweethome!! =D

and chnU,8pm show. 'Uaretheone'!
oh gosh, yuan shuai won again..
i want clement to win. he's cute what?!
i know yuan shuai is really crazily shuai.
but he won 3 times leh. no fair.
Haha. ok la. whatever. bYe!! =)

whats lost will be lost forever, i guess.

stick with a person who would endure,

ur good moods, bad moods,

and whether u're handsomeorprettyorugly.

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

stupid 3D gossip-ers...

dont wish to talk about ppl from 3D.
really make me so freaking pissed man!
oh damn damn... roarrrrrrrroarrrr!!

oh yaya, and happy birthday paul.
stay retarded forever!! its good. Haha!
well, just came back from sis friend Bbq!!
but,im not back home yet, still at uncle's house.
the Bbq was alright la...
told ya i was just being too introverted.
i really cant talk to ppl whom i dunno.
and my sis got a lot of pretty friends!
and saw some usual faces,
esp, that jonathan. funny sia he...
and there was this handsome guy.
and the face like very act cool like junhong.
but i think if get to know him will be ok.
and guess whats his name? Royston! lol.
like so omg can. total opposite of royston lee.
he is like tall and handsome sia. woah!
anyways, i think valerie's bro was there too.
and so was sonya's bro.. lolx. so many ppl.

then me and my parents went to the new mall.
then we went to the arcade.
wheee, i played daytona! hahaha!
and then, saw many many familiar faces!!
too bad never see somebody.. haiz!
and saw timothy too. lolx. mr ye no.2!! LoL!
then nothing le lor.. Haha! byebye!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Friday, May 09, 2008

F***, i Hate 3D!!!! seriously!
except for some ppl and the teachers...
i've really got no comments already.
just feel so pissed. like whats happening?!

today never get to see the person. haiz!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

its the end of the MYEs!!!

omg-ness i cant believe it,
its the end of the MYEs le..
i never study much for every paper.
and yesyes, i mean EVERY!!
i guess im just going to fail all la huh.
with an egg on every paper.. haiz!
ahhh, i suddenly miss "aaron/ah-boo/ah-bu"...
so long long long never see him le la!!!
oh gosh!!! yong lin, do u have his contacts?!!
i dont think so right? lolx. roars...
i really miss him sososo much....
wah, sianz. 3-4yrs never see him le leh...
no fate. dont think i'd recognize him anyways.

you know you were the last person to spend the 2007 with me, and was also the first to spend my 2008 with me... i felt that it was really memorable. and you had to end it this way. but fate made it this way, for you and me to never be friends again. i guess that just wasnt a friendship meant to be... but i really wondered what made you change this way....

today was sucha unexplainable day!!
was walking back to class with nats,
suddenly i said something stupid.
then i dunno why i suddenly turned back,
and guess what???!!!
that guy was behind la, oh shits!
i hope he didnt hear anything la.
but luckily i never say that loudly.
i was feeling frustrated saying that stupid thing.

and then here comes the Add-maths paper.
which really really made me feel.........
like just wanting to DIE at that moment.
that a-maths paper is a confirm FAIL.
couldnt think of any crap to write.
at least e-maths still can think of some crap.
but a-maths i just died there can.
was looking outside most of the time.
then finally 10am came!!!
yay, its the end of MYEs.. wheeeeee!
actually supposed to go rachel's house.
but then suddenly dont want le.
then i made them walk one big round.
around the sch even though backgate,
was like OPEN, haha. was wasting time!
since it was just 10am+ can....

then took bus with nats to interchange.
went to cs and tm with nats...
ate at cs.. then walked around at tm.
then nats came my house,
we cooked spaghetti.. LoL!!
cos nothing better to do mah.
after eating sat at my sofa.
we talked lots of crap..........
i loved that moment very much. i just love spending time talking about life stuffs with my friends la... a pity mui wasnt there leh.. lolx.
ok this should be all, nothing to say le.
and tmr there's cheer practice..
back to sch although no paper. LOL!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

fateiswhatihopethatdoesnotexists!

hey ya!!!! hey yo!! Haha.
nats persuades me to blog here,
so i shall just blog la huh... lol.
and i love the chn8,9pm show.
sucha complicated romance,
and one that had led to a tragedy.
loveloveloveromanceshows. hehe.
cos i know i can fantasize with it... Zzz!

sometimes i wonder do you even know what does friendship mean?!! its like 1yr of friendship and 1 day jiu fan lian bu ren ren. is this ur meaning of friendship. i wish i never knew you at all. then no need suffer this fate from ur friendship. why did i even decide to be ur friend,didnt know you were like that, and friendship also means that friends should be with each other through thick or thin, thru happiness and sorrows. i think you're the only person i'll hate all my life... am i such a bad friend to you? sending an e-mail just doesnt help you know. i've never seen such a person like you. and will never want to meet one again!!!

okok, MONDAY!!!!
sch was okokok,
exams were notoknotoknotok!
while walking back to class,
saw that handsome face...
then got 1hr break, went canteen.
saw him again... wahahahas!
and then i was making nats,mui,farah&habibah,
laugh like crap, cos i was talking rubbish!!
i think i was just going high. heh.
then after sch nothing much la..

okok, TUESDAY!!!!
anyways, exams were boohoos!
i really try my very best leh!!
then after sch go prata shop eat,
now rachel knows who im crushing on!
im like so dead la. and she knows him.
ohhhh no!! she told me about his character,
i Thought he has a good character&attitude.
but NO, i was really wrong la.
and just dont get it la,
why most handsome guys got bad character?!!
very annoyed with this can... haiz!
oh ya, and then rachel said this:
that guy the leg very hairy...
and my answer without thinking was,
i like hairy guys.. oops! didnt mean to say that.
but i mean like, hairy leg guys are better than,
those that have no leg hair la..
i mean like a bit weird la huh.. hehe!
i know im being disgusting talking about leg hair.
and then rachel was like,
i'll never forget this sentence that you said. lol.
yup, thats all.. Hahas!

ok, now TODAY!!!!! lol.
went to coffeeshop with mui.
nats was there alr. then aw came..
they ate porridge. smells so Nice!
then while waiting for traffic light to cross,
saw that guy la... omg-ness!
went toilet bcos something happened.
ok dont think wrong hor... Haha!!
then i think im really dead.
i very scared will fail all the subjects.
all the papers i write crap de leh!! shits!
and yes, i really mean ALL!!!
then had lit exam in sch hall...
was writing like super a lot, until hand pain.
then buy bbt with mui. then home!!

Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

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