and to think that i really trusted you this time.
but you betrayed my trust again... why??!!!!!
feel like just DYING and leaving you with her. but i still love you...... AHHHHHHH!
seriously why must you do this to me. what did i do to him and her? what???! i didnt even betray ur trust sia... i will believe and trust you just this one more time.... ok la. fine la. im useless in everything i do. even keeping this relationship well also cannot. to the extend that he Did kiss her. seriously im damn useless la.. even my sis says im useless. how useless can i get?! am i really that useless? i guess so la.. and NA students not stupid they can be clever just that lazy use their brains only but only im stupid in every single thing i do. even in my studies. just one stupid girl... natalie.. DIE is the best solution right?? Haha!
and im really like one piece of shit la, ya what you said is right. no, wait im far more worse than a piece of shit... how wonderful is that... and im super desperate for guys la until go stalk every single guy i see la huh. and audrey did you realise whenever i talk to you i dont really use any bad words. cool right. is cos i dont want offend you. but too bad you seem to be offended. and i dont care. cos i didnt use any hurtful words i guess... anyways. nvm. im not going to care alr.
well, yesterday cry on the phone while talking to natalie, about 12am++ i think and i cry until 3am sia.. cool. and then thought after sleeping will be alright. today morning wake up.. think think think then tears just started to drop again.. haizzzz... you did hurt my feelings really deeply this time round... trusting you is just too difficult now. and superman is stupid la. so lan one. cannot help de. superman also cannot be trusted. but is he far more worse than superman? that i dont know... Hahaha. and my blog song the guy sing totally describing me sia.. serious! i mean like... nvm. i want to be with you but im so scared. and my tears keep falling from my eyes. and times wont change my love for you. but i cant do anything to keep you. and you think that love ain't here to stay. i dream the future and all i see is dark. listen to ur heart baby the truth will set sparks. ok thats all, ya the truth really set sparks going in the wrong way. argh. i dunno what i talking... and hidayah. u're really crazy. my life where got like drama serial sia. although rather exciting. and you said drama serials end in happy ending. i hope mine will be a happy ending lor. i hope so. and i promise you i wont be sad le. hidayah i support you in whatever you do too. LoL! and i really shouldnt cry anymore or else will have blockednose.. stupid!! but im still crying la. wth!! well, shall look forward to christmas bah. im supposed to be in christmas mood and all this just made me super frustrated and confused. and will also look forward to 2008. hope it will be a much better year. okay im done writing.. byeeeeeeeeee! =(